How did I let it happen? How did I wake up one day to find myself at 286 pounds and completely miserable in my own body? It happened, I can't blame anyone but me. And only I can fix it. So I am. On December 23, 2009 I had Lap-Band Surgery with Dr. John Marsden. I'm down 100 pounds so far with about 25 to go.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

My first "blind" fill

I went today and had my fill, it wasn't bad but it wasn't great either.

I went into the office and filled out some papers, then they took my weight and my blood pressure (108/70 thankyouverymuch!) then I went in to the room where they would do the fill. A very nice lady came in and I told her I was a bit nervous just because this was the first time I'd had a fill with no fluoro. She said she understood and that she would do her best to get me in and out of there. I laid down on the table and showed her exactly where my port is. It is very easy to feel under my skin so I didn't think there would be an issue. She asked if I wanted a numbing shot, but I declined as I've never had to do that before and figured this wouldn't be that much different. She proceeds and I quickly realize there is something not quite right going on, she could not get the needle into my port :( she must've messed with it for several minutes. I'm not normally a wuss about pain but this really hurt!! After me saying "ow!" several times, she finally gave it up and went and got someone else.

The second lady came in and I told her what had happened, she suggested I get numbed and this time I said yes since I was already sore from all the poking before. That made ALL the difference!!! It stung a little bit when I got the numbing shot but then when she put the bigger needle in I didn't feel a thing :) From what I could tell she hit it on the first try and it was all over in the blink of an eye. She gave me .3cc which brings me up to 5.8cc in my 10cc band. The last time when I had to have an unfill I had been at 5.9cc so they did a little less this time in hopes that I won't have any heartburn this time.

So that is my story, and from now on I will have the numbing shot because it was really worth it to me!!

Hope y'all are having a great day :)

Happy Fill Day!

I'm getting a fill today at 3:30 and I have to say that I'm a little scared.

You see, in the 2+ years since I got my band I have always had my fills first thing in the morning and under fluro with a barium swallow. Today is the first time that I will have one in the afternoon and in a regular exam room where they just "guess" how much to put in. I don't know what to expect and it is freaking me out! So keep your fingers crossed and send good thoughts my way please!

Monday, February 27, 2012

Chi Town

My flights are booked!

My room is reserved!

My vacation days have been requested!

I can NOT WAIT!!!!!!

Monday, February 20, 2012

This one is for you Dawnya ;)

I'm here! <insert whatever excuse you think is appropriate for me being gone for the past few months, and then get on with life />

I have been thinking for the past couple of weeks what to say when I made my triumphant (hah!) return to blogging and honestly I got nothin'. I am not a wordsmith. I mostly babble about whatever comes to mind at the time, but when I go to blog my mind goes blank more often than not.

Recently, I looked back at my weight chart and I noticed that right around Thanksgiving I just gave up. I shot up 10+ pounds in a couple of weeks. And since then apparently I just stopped trying. Until a few days ago. Call it what you will, Holiday Blues or Winter Slump, it really doesn't matter. I was just worn out on trying so hard. I don't have this new found blast of energy or anything, but when my size 14's started getting too tight for my liking, I realized that I had to do something.

Story of everyone's life, right?

I got myself a Fitbit, how awesome are those things?! (BTW, I need some friends on there so if you have one please add me - and I think that has contributed to my new attitude. It is way cooler than the BodyBugg, wireless updating and much smaller and easier to conceal. I am logging my food and trying to hit my goals every day. I've started walking the stairs at work for exercise and sometimes walking the parking garage in the afternoons with a friend.

I know most everyone here will be able to relate to this feeling, how things go so much slower the closer you get to goal. And how incredibly frustrating that is to deal with every day. How exciting it can be to lose 2.8 pounds in 2 weeks. And how hard it is to fight every single day to make the right choices (band or no band) and keep reminding yourself that it is worth it and you won't die without that cookie and that everything will be alright. As you all can tell, clearly I have been struggling lately. :)

So, lets move on to happier topics! I've been watching a lot of TV lately ... here are some things I've seen:

  • Sons of Anarchy
  • Revenge
  • Downton Abbey
  • Arrested Development
  • Luther
  • Supernatural

Up next I have in my queue:

  • Once Upon a Time
  • Grimm
  • Happy Town
  • Southland
  • Prison Break
  • Terra Nova
  • Justified
That is all I can think of to babble on about at the moment! Have a great day :)