How did I let it happen? How did I wake up one day to find myself at 286 pounds and completely miserable in my own body? It happened, I can't blame anyone but me. And only I can fix it. So I am. On December 23, 2009 I had Lap-Band Surgery with Dr. John Marsden. I'm down 100 pounds so far with about 25 to go.

Monday, June 20, 2011

Week 2 - Not off to a stellar start

I am going to warn you up front. I am not a happy camper today. I am blah and grumpy and kinda feel like crawling in a hole and crying. I would like for today to be over now. Although the next 2 days at work are going to be super fun, filled with (literally) all day meetings. At least after work for the next 2 days I have fun stuff planned. Hopefully that will get me through the daytime hours.

I want to be honest. I feel like quitting. Not quitting life with the band, not at all. Just quitting this challenge. I feel like I did pretty good during the week but then just absolutely blew it over the weekend. Take a gander at these numbers ...

Today's Weight: 186.4

Seriously? How is that possible? I honestly don't understand. Although, according to my numbers for the week that is exactly what it should be. Let's look at the math.

Starting weight last Monday: 187.4
Total calories burned for the week: 14,279
Total calories consumed for the week: 10,880
Calorie deficit for the week: 3,399 (1 pound = 3,500 calories)
Today's weight: 186.4

Pretty much explains it right? So, why was I 184.8 and 185.2 on other days this week. This is the stuff that I hate. (And also why I hate math in general!) Things never add up the way you think they should. I suppose if I hadn't gotten on the scale every single day last week I wouldn't be upset at this mornings number.

In the 'keeping me honest' vein, here are my numbers from yesterday.

Burned: 2019
Consumed: 2213 Thank you milkshake and chocolate almonds ... sigh.
Surplus: 194
Steps: 2387
Activity: 15 minutes

I know there are a lot of numbers in this post (At least Beth will appreciate that!) and for that I apologize. Numbers seem to rule my life right now. And I am not fond of numbers. Unless of course they say what I want them to say :)

I brought my lunch today, several low calorie/high protein things. So that is good. But mostly I think I need to stop talking about this before I really do start to cry, and seeing as how I'm at work right now, it is probably not the best time to do that, don't ya think?

Hanging on by a thread ... but still hanging.


  1. Don't give up! I LOVE numbers, being a bean counter and all but I hate the ones you speak makes sense but not the sense we want to see and hear. Hang in there, you'll get over it and it'll get easier!

  2. Just wanted to say hi! I found your blog from Beth Ann's. I was banded about three weeks ago by Dr. Marsden! :)

  3. That is so frustrating when you put in all the work and don't see the results like you think you should! I think it's okay to be honest where you're at and when you are having crappy days!

  4. I do love me some numbers! I completely understand. I did a crappy job over the weekend too. But it is back on the horse!! I KNOW you can do it.