How did I let it happen? How did I wake up one day to find myself at 286 pounds and completely miserable in my own body? It happened, I can't blame anyone but me. And only I can fix it. So I am. On December 23, 2009 I had Lap-Band Surgery with Dr. John Marsden. I'm down 100 pounds so far with about 25 to go.

Thursday, August 4, 2011


I went out at lunch time today with a friend/co-worker, somehow we got on the discussion of size. Now, she has only worked with me for 6ish months so she never knew me when I was big. She has seen a picture, but she says she can't picture me like that and that it doesn't seem like its real. Anyway, I know a lot of us have problems seeing ourselves as we actually are once we begin to lose the weight, and I am no exception. While I know I'm not as big as I used to be, I still wouldn't consider myself "normal" sized. Apparently, that is just me. My friend said that from the first time she met me she never once thought to herself that I was big. She has always thought of me as just a normal sized person, average build. That really shocked me! She is a very beautiful girl and has a great figure, being around someone like that always makes me feel like I am a giant and just huge overall. But to know that my size never even entered her mind as a defining feature of me ... well, wow. That just made my whole week!

I know Beth was talking about a similar topic today on her blog, and it just struck me how thankful I am to all of you out there who might be reading. Knowing that I am not alone, knowing I have people I can turn to when I have a question or a problem or just want to vent. That is an amazing thing. Truly and completely amazing. I know people who don't have that kind of support and it makes a difference in the success that we can achieve. So thank you all!

Tonight is more yoga and I am super excited! Then we are going to see Horrible Bosses with James' work team. Should be fun :) Woo hoo!!!


  1. Being "normal" is weird, right?? Or feels weird anyway. I'm not sure when it started (but just recently) I have started to realize that I don't look like the hoss I imagine in my brain.

    I caught a guy looking at me at lunch today. Before I would have thought it was because I was fat for whatever reason. But I genuinely think he might have been checking me out. Ha! SO FREAKING BIZARRE!

    Have fun with James! See you on Monday, BBF!

  2. You are "normal" sized!! You are also beautiful inside and out. This community we have is awesome.

    You have done so well in your journey...and I have no doubt you will continue to be an inspiration.

  3. Ohhhh I can't wait to be normal - on sooo many levels.. :)

  4. I love the support and community we have here! It makes a huge difference! Looking forward to group next week!

  5. I think we are the last ones to really see the changes for what they are. I don't know if I'll ever feel like I'm at a normal weight!

  6. You're fabulous! I was super jealous of how good you looked, so if that's any indication of how normal you are, there ya go! :)

  7. Hi Debi. I am new follower. I am looking forward to reading about your fantastic weight loss journey.